Down Six!

Down 6 pounds this week!!!!!!!!!!! Eeeeewwwwwwwwwww --------->

It was a great week "Food as fuel" was a good mantra! I earned 30Aps which isn't a lot of me (lol) but it was enough for my body. Ahhh balance!

Up & Down

Ok so I bought a Weight Watchers scale like 2 weeks ago and I have been weighing in almost daily. A few years ago I had to throw my scale away because it drove me crazy I was on and off like 10 times in a day, up and down, it was a bad thing. Fast forward to 2 weeks ago my Mother made a good point that she weighs in often to keep on top of her weight gain. I never thought of it like that well it was working until Saturday and I gained 4 freaking pounds wth?? A/w I weighed in this morning and I was down 4 pounds. I am on blood pressure medication, or at least I am supposed to be and I stopped taking them months ago. When I was in Body Pump my right hand felt tight so I said let me take my medication I am more than likely retaining water because I am very sensitive to salt. This is how I know that...

Last year in the spring sometime I had a super week I stayed on point and worked out every day when I went to weigh in I gained 8 pounds! I almost died literally the Weight watcher's check in lady had to talk me down off the wall and she asked me how did my week go and I told her if anything I should have lost 8 pounds not gained it and she took the time to ask me if I did anything differently food wise and I looked in my journal and I had several frozen dinners that week. Now they were in my point range and all that but she suggested cutting them out completely the next week and see what happens when I weigh in. Well I didn't even weigh in a week later (it was like 5 days) and I lost 15 POUNDS! The WW lady thought the scale was broken! lol But I knew I had lost a huge amount I could feel it. Ever since then I rarely have frozen food (meals or veggies) b/c all of our bodies react differently to sodium. In fact I know someone who was about my size when she began and all she had was Weight watchers smart ones and she dropped 100 pounds in like a year... Lucky her if only I could rely on prepackage, pre-portioned, pre- point labeled boxed food ahhhh but alas I cannot and to be honest even if I could, I wouldn't because I want to be wife and a mother one day and what am I gonna do feed them lean cuisine every night? To me that is not a lifestyle I can live with.

So a/w I got to thinking last week I had sushi twice (with soy sauce most contain over 1000 mg of sodium per tablespoon) and a lean cuisine pizza and a few other processed treats. Not bad for most people but for me its the water retention kiss of death. I know it had to be something b/c my clothing is fitting so much better and I feel smaller and sure nuff that was it. Note to self do not take yourself off of medication your Doctor gives you without her ok and cut back on the high salt food items!

Weight Loss

I been thinking long and hard about weight loss. Its been a constant companion in my life... seriously its always been there with me this idea that I should/need to/must/gotta lose weight. At different times in my life the desire or the intensity has changed but for the most part the goal has always been there with me like a long time ‘Friendenemy’ (Half friend, half enemy). I been thinking about weight loss surgery because this battle has been raging for at least 20 years and its has gotten progressively worst. I had some success in 2006-2007 when I lost 45.6 pounds but felt defeated when I regained a sizable portion of that. I have been arming my self with information (see post below) and it makes me feel ?better? to know its not all in my head that there is some science to the fact that weight loss is an uphill battle.

I went to the gym and did Body Flow last night at 7:30pm. I went home first b/c I was starving and then went... that was victory for me usually going home means staying home. The class was hard, so hard but I did it. Tonight I am going to do Body Pump last week I wanted to cry in Body Pump I felt so beat down but I am drawing a line in the sand I must pick a side Sida A) this as an actual LIFESTYLE and know I must eat right and exercise faithfully or Side B) get surgery go through that pain and cost and still have to eat right and exercise.

The choice is mine...

Why is it so hard to lose weight?

I am on mission to research as much as I can about weight loss. Here are some articles I found helpful.

http://www.heractivelife.com/women/comment/why-its-hard-to-lose-weight/

http://psychology.suite101.com/article.cfm/how_hunger_works

http://seattletimes.nwsource.com/html/pacificnw09102006/2003248131_pacificploser10.html
http://www.latimes.com/features/health/la-he-regain2-2008jun02,1,3711514.story

http://www.webmd.com/diet/features/focus-thinking-differently-lose-weight?page=3

http://www.nurturedsoul.com/drop-pounds-and-inches-with-a-positive-attitude/

http://www.nowloss.com/how-to-break-out-of-a-weight-loss-plateau.htm

1 Pound

The power of just one pound is amazing. I gained one pound today. I am in a foul mood b/c of it but in spite of being in a foul mood I considered the fact that I have not weighed in since 7-8-08 and a lot has happened since then Boule, etc. so I need to focus on what happens next. I bought the WW book Start Living, Start Losing it has inspirational stories about people who have lost weight with WW only $13.00. I also bough the pocket points calculator I get caught out there without the slide all the time and this is helpful only $10.00. I need to surround myself with positive stuff. I just finished chapter 2 of the Kathy Freston book Quantum Wellness and the topic was the 8 Pillars of Good Health two that I need to focus on big time are meditating and visualization. I used both a lot last year and I know it helps and lo and behold today’s WW meeting the topic was Mental Rehearsing.

I made up my mind to as one of my Sorors put it “Go back to basics” and get back on the right path. I know some of the basics were counting points, journaling BEFORE eating so I knew where I was point was, exercising, going to my Saturday morning meetings, and journaling. I’ve been feeling distracted the last year really self imposed distraction and I want to stop that foolishness.

I am going to WI again tomorrow at my "old" meeting and I need to be hoenst I am just embarassed that's why I stopped going. I need tog et over that and go back to what helped me reach my 45.6 last year.

Back to Bizzznezzz

Well this weekend marked my great return to the gym. I am a recovering cardio-crackhead. I will post my old blog on the right so you can catch up! I am a huge fan of Les Mills Programs. You see last year around this time I was at a total loss of 45.6 pounds. At the time I was disappointed but now that I am at a total loss of 13.6 & I am yearning for the days of ole when I had "only" lost 40 pounds *insert gas face here* I have been bitter about it and I think I am finally over being bitter and ready to get back to the basics. A few things 1) I've already been successful at Weight Watchers 2) I know a lot more today than I did 2 years ago 3) I have more confidence in my ability to reach this goal because I have a true desire to lose the weight.





The first thing I did was call my old WW/workout buddy "A." I woke up around 7:30am on Saturday and called her and asked her what she was doing today and she said nothing so I said you want to go to Body Combat??!! (I am in love with that man onthe right even though that's hi s fiancee int he pic DAN is the Man!) She was quiet for a few seconds and said "Yes...I'll...go" Now A and I had a good buddy system going for awhile that kinda fell apart. I think our personalities are very different and what she took as me chastising her I meant as motivation. Also what I took as disinterest was her giving me room to grow and learn at my own pace. Along the way we fell out of each other's good graces and we went our separate ways. She got a personal trainer at a different gym and I kept going to our old gym and gaining a losing the same 5-10 pounds. We still kept in touch and at the time worked at the same job so we'd check in on each other from time to time but the funny things is when we were good, we were very good. I think a buddy is very important. Not only to help motivate you but to be a support system and a kick in the rear if need be. I get a lot out of helping people that's just my personality so I think kick-starting this partnerships will be a good move.





On Sunday I went to Body Step *whew* It had been a minute but I made my way through the class but I was really shocked at how my cardio level has gone down in such a short span of time! I planned to do Body Pump but that would have been too much! And to think a year ago I could do Body Step, Body Pump and then Body Flow like it was a walk in the park! Shame! But it will be just a matter of time before I get my stride back!